Unlike so many times before, this dream somehow answer things..
In my dream yesterday, he was my neighbour.. everytime we about to bump,I ran away as quickly as I could.. I ignored him. Then one day come a script of letter. It's our old conversation.. from many years ago. He prints it and highlight so many things and there's a note on each highlighted phrases.
As he explained what he wrote to me long time ago, things he didn't mean to say, he shouldn't said. And some of my words that hurting him as well.
And on the last pages.. he wrote..
"Things could never be back okay again. No matter how much we want, how much we tried.. we can't never mend what we broke before. Just like when you went to a dining and find the food wasn't as much as you loves, or if their taste as bad as you could imagine.. would you go again to the store? I'm not saying our relationship before was that bad, but we broke up and hurt each other. As much as it hurting you, it hurting me too. And I don't want to go through the same pain again with you. I hope you understand.. we would never be back again.."
As I read those words.. I understand. I felt the same, I don't want us get to that relationship again. But he missed understand. All I want is we have a good end, the maybe we could be friend again. But I think I know now, he could never want to be my friend anymore.
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I woke up and realized..
Guess that's how he ends what I been wonder all this time.
If that's what you wish H..